Rising Up From The Ashes

Only ten days left in the semester and I still have 13 papers to write (I need deadlines or I put it all off until the very end!) plus two exams to study for.

Of course, what that *really* means is that I will be spending an obscene amount of time messing around with hideously long surveys like this one. Skip or enjoy. Either way it served its purpose in allowing me to procrastinate even further.

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Do you sleep with the TV on?
Not normally. I refuse to have on in my bedroom although I do on occasion find myself having dozed off in front of the tube. Been sleeping much better lately and my living room chairs are just too comfortable. Do usually sleep with it on in hotels though since I don’t sleep well and it gives me a bit of light so I don’t break my neck stumbling around in the dark.

Have you ever won a spelling bee?
haha…never! I am terrible at spelling and must write a word out to get it right.

Have you ever stuffed your bra?
Nope, never needed to. The girls came in way before I ever wanted them. Just got in the way when I was playing sports. Hell, they still do sometimes although now I consider them worth the hassle. :)

When is the last time you took a bubble bath?
a couple weeks ago although I almost did last night

Who are you thinking of right now?
my number one.

Do you talk in your sleep?
I have done so a couple times but it is very rare.

Have you ever flown a kite?
No. Dad always got my Easter kite stuck in a tree and I never got a chance. Had planned to buy myself one this Easter and give it a shot but then wasn’t really that ambitious when the day rolled around. Part of me wants to go do so now and another part still ties it to an Easter thing. Someday.

Have you ever eaten green eggs and ham?
yes. Made them a couple times just for fun.

Have you ever asked for a horse?
yes, I really enjoy riding.

Missing someone right now?
yes

When was the last time you told someone you loved them?
it has been too long

What are 3 things you always bring with you to places?
phone, lip goo, book

Last time you ate sushi?
last week

What song are you currently listening to?

What was the last thing you ate?
Cobb salad. Yum!

Is there something you want that you can't have?
of course

Last movie you watched at the theater?
Monsters vs. Aliens

Have your friends ever randomly stopped by your house?
yes but it is not advised. I may or may not let you in if I am not expecting company.

Who's the last person you had a deep conversation with?
Lorena

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
yep

How many different colors are you wearing right now?
4

If you could have something back right now, what would it be?
Thing? None of the things really matter anymore but I guess my stolen cell phone. No, scratch that! I want my pictures back.

How is the weather right now?
Perfect. sunny with just a few high, thin clouds. 75F with a slight breeze. I would much rather be out there hiking or riding my bike.

Does anyone call you babe?
no, at least not to my face

Has anybody ever given you butterflies?
Depends. The insect? That would just piss me off. They should be free to flit about as they wish. The feeling? Yeah, there is someone who can do that.

What are you doing besides this?
writing a paper, chatting with people I know, watching the lab, listening to YouTube

Do you have any plans for tomorrow?
movie, work, may get my hair trimmed and/or pedicure, grab a few groceries, pay bills. I lead an exciting life!

If your friends warn you about someone, do you listen?
Guess it depends on who they are warning me about and whether they are basing the warning on a feeling or something they know.

Have you made any new regrets this year?
I make tons of mistakes so I am full of them.

When was the last time you had a headache?
no clue. It has been years.

Is there anything that you are craving for right now?
Peanut buster parfait. Or anything involving hot fudge.

Do you know anyone who has been arrested?
yes, the list is long

Do you have any friends whose parents will no longer let them hang out with?
Rather old for that crap now. My friend’s parents actually really liked me. One was going to help pay for my college out of HS but I wouldn’t let her. But parents didn’t know me would often refuse to let their kids near me just based on my looks.

Do you know anyone who would just drop everything to come see you?
no

When did you last receive money?
I got paid two weeks ago but otherwise am not lucky enough to just ‘receive money.’ Would be nice though. Maybe I’ll set up a PayPal account…

Is there someone you will never forget?
yes

Do you get drunk every weekend?
nope. I don’t even have a drink every weekend much less get drunk.

Would you ever date a bad kisser?
I don’t think I would if he was actually bad. I find it is usually a pretty good indicator of how good a lover the person is.

You're locked in a room with the person you last kissed, what happens?
We’d talk. Maybe watch a movie. If I were lucky, I’d get another one of those kisses…

What side of the bed do you sleep on?
Currently I sleep smack in the middle

Do you like competition?
yes I do tend to be competitive although it makes me not much fun to play games or team sports with

Has anyone ever called you a bitch?
do you even have to ask?

Is there anyone you know that deserves to get slapped?
only playfully or in fun

Have you ever been told that you were going to hell?
I have been told that by many, many people. I suspect they are right.

How do you feel about your hair right now?
My bangs are far too long and the color is faded. Gonna try to color it this weekend without turning my bathroom purple. It is getting harder now that it is getting longer.

Is there someone that makes you happy every time you speak with them?
yes

When’s the last time you said you were fine but you really weren't?
Who knows? I don’t keep track of those things but just let them go. Why carry it around with me?

Do you sometimes wonder what the world would be like without you?
yes, I have done so.

Have you ever had anything expensive stolen from you?
you bet!

Do you remember the first time you kissed the last person you kissed?
I sure do.

Honestly, has anyone seen you in your underwear in the past three months?
No

Have you ever walked on the beach at night?
Yes. Had bonfires there. Fucked there. Camped there.

Do you think two people can last forever?
yes but then I may have just watched too damn many movies and read too many books

Have you ever fallen asleep with the last person you kissed?
yes

When is the next time you'll hug someone?
no clue

Who will be the first person you call tomorrow?
Not planning to call anyone. I am not a phone person and not close to many people either.

Do you have a best friend to lean on?
no

When do you go to sleep?
lately I have been going to bed around midnight or 1am. Early for me.

Have you ever taken a picture of yourself kissing someone?
no

Do you still talk to the person you had your first kiss with?
not really although we have bumped into each other on occasion since our families are still friends and we would get invited to the same weddings and funerals

What kind of music did you listen to in elementary school?
rock

What is the best thing about your job?
the flexibility and now they pay for my classes

Where are you going on your next vacation?
Japan unless I manage to squeeze something in before then

What is your favorite smell?
jasmine, sex, crayons, thunderstorms, cherries, chocolate, steak…mmm…I am getting hungry!

What is your favorite sight?
the eyes of someone I love

Have you ever done anything vindictive to your coworkers?
hmmm…anything is possible

Have you ever played Spin the bottle?
not exactly. We didn’t have a bottle so we used a knife. Yes, I was twisted way back then too. Does that surprise you?

Have you ever gone camping?
Yes. Used to do it often and even in the dead of winter.

Have you ever been to a nude beach?
Yep. Burned the hell out of the girls too.

Have you ever had a stalker?
Currently dealing with number 4.

Have you ever gone to a party where you were the only sober one?
yes although I don’t usually last long

Have you ever thrown up from working out?
Yes, heavy squats can be a bitch.

Have you ever gotten a haircut so bad that you wore a hat for a month straight?
Yes. I should have just chopped it all off.

Kissed more than one person at a time?
yep

Is there anyone that you feel completes you?
Don’t know that I would say he completes me but we were great together in that we each had strengths that balanced out the other’s weaknesses.

What's your favorite soup?
French onion

Are you insecure about anything?
of course

Do you have any friends you need to catch up with?
yes, quite a few. I have been hiding lately.

Are you happy with your appearance?
most of the time

Is there a high chance of you going out to the movies soon?
planning to do so tomorrow

How often do you hold back from saying what you are thinking?
Guess it depends on how important the issue is and who the person is. I can be far too blunt. Other times I say things that were meant to just be silly but instead come out as an insult. Or I can hold it in because I simply don’t like or trust you enough to share.

What was the last thing you wrote down?
was practicing my kanji

Do you know any potheads?
quite a few

Are you a pothead?
no

What can you hear right now?
just this

Do you have your tonsils and wisdom teeth?
yes to all

Anyone jealous of you or anything you have?
Probably. My life is better than many.

Have you ever been asked out by someone you didn't want to date?
Yes but then I am very fussy about who I go out with

How many funerals have you been to in your life time?
I lost count years ago. Hell I once had a three month period where nine people died. All individually, not in some mass accident.

Have you ever done something you promised yourself you wouldn't?
*sigh* yes

Is someone mad at you right now?
Probably. I do believe I am pretty nicely situated on my family’s shit list.

Do you think you can love someone without trusting them?
not really.

Who was the last person you took a picture with?
the father of the groom

Do you think making out is slutty?
WTF? Did a 12-year-old write this?

Three hours ago, were you touching a person of the opposite sex?
Sadly, no

What's something that bothers you about girls?
they will fuck over their friends and other women to get the attention of some guy they don’t even know

Is there someone who meant a lot to you at one point and isn't around now?
of course, I am not a child.

Could you ever be friends with someone who hurt you before?
I suppose. It would depend on how he/she hurt me and whether or not it was intentional. I find it is hard to be hurt by someone I don’t care for because that person’s opinions and actions mean nothing to me.

Who was last in the shower with you?
God, I suppose the husband back when he was still my husband. No "fun" shower in years. Stupid thing is that it was my own fault for missing the offer when it was last made. Dummy!

What is more important in a relationship, happiness or trust?
Trust.....trust is the key to ANY relationship. Without it there isn’t really much of a relationship. Happiness comes and goes as life gets in the way.

Did you learn anything from the last big mistake you made?
I’d like to think so but only time will tell.

Why did you last cry, in front of who?
the why is confidential and there was no who

Has anyone made you feel like crap lately for something you did?
guess it depends on what you mean by lately but no

How does it make you feel looking at pics with your ex and someone else?
I was happy to see them. Hope it means he has moved on and I won’t ever hear from him again.

Do you own a studded belt from Hot Topic?
Well, I have several studded belts but they are from Harley Davidson. Cooler and more expensive!

How many pairs of shoes do you own?
200+

Did anyone see you kiss the last person you kissed?
Yes, some people even had to push their way past us and it is probably on the school's security cam too.

What is the last movie you watched?
Salo

Do you have any scars on your legs?
lots of them

Has anyone told you they don't wanna ever lose you?
yeah

Do you consider yourself creative?
hell, if anything I have a difficult time thinking IN the box

Has someone asked you on a date in the past week?
yes

Has someone ever made you a promise & broke it?
of course

Honestly, do you really love the last person you said "I love you" to?
yes I do

Are there any saved birthday cards in your bedroom?
yes, I can be far too sentimental

What kind of shirt are you wearing?
black tee with an obnoxious saying on it. Probably not work appropriate but I wore it any way.

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
many, many times. Sometimes on purpose, sometimes just because I wasn’t thinking things through fully.

How often do you drink water?
constantly. I am practically floating.

Do you read your horoscope?
when it is handy but I don’t go out of my way to get it

What does the 4th text in your inbox say?
“Our lives are messes ;)”

What was the last thing you highlighted?
this survey to cut & paste it

What color are your bedroom curtains?
black velvet

What kind of car were you driving 2 years ago?
black, ’92 Exploder

Closest framed picture to you?
one of the dog I had before Ruko, Klaus

Last time you had someone cook for you?
Easter some friends cooked dinner for us all. Just for me? It has been months.

Have you ever applied for welfare?
no

Last time you used hand sanitizer?
I don’t think I ever have. It strikes me as one of those things that is just a little too paranoid. I don’t mind a little dirt.

What is the last place you bought pizza from?
Davanni’s although I really could go for Galactic Pizza now that you brought it up. Thanks a lot… >:-(

Last time you had a Krispy Kreme doughnut?
a couple years. Loved ‘em but they closed down by me. Thanks again. :(

Who is the last person that left you a message & you actually returned their call?
Guy

Do you write notes on your body?
sometimes although I like writing notes on other bodies much better

Do you remember Ugly Kid Joe?
yes, was just listening to him on my way into work this morning

Do you have nice eyes?
well, they work and I can see with them and they are decent enough to get me compliments on occasion so I’ll have to say ‘yes’

Are you close with your mother?
nope! Can’t stand her.

Did you speak to your father today?
nope, he is dead

When was the last time you had your hair cut?
last July although I have trimmed my bangs in the sink a couple of times. Debating whether I am going to do that again or actually get it all reshaped.

What are you freakishly obsessed with?
it is not a what, it is a who? I am about ready to join the “Men are stupid and women are crazy” cult. Sad but true.

Have an Ipod? what color?
yep, still have my little, hot pink shuffle (thanks again Amanda!)

Do you know how to dance?
Depends on the style. I have been known to do so when the mood is right.

What was your favorite childhood cartoon?
Marvin the Martian or Scooby Doo

What is your favorite thing that is green?
cash!

Have you ever been in a fight?
I may have had to kick an ass or two in my time.

Is the last person you kissed mad at you?
not that I know of

Where do you go when you need to just get away?
I just drive aimlessly.

If you were an evil dictator, where would you rule?
everywhere!

What do you need to get right now at the drug store?
bandaids. I’m all out of Powerpuff Girls. They better have something good!

Have you ever broken a pinata?
yes, I am going to try again in just over a week

Worst bathroom you have ever been in?
you know I love my Hard Times Café but their bathrooms are disgusting!