Rising Up From The Ashes

Not much going on here at work. If I am busy doing a survey it looks like I am working even though I am not so this was a good way to pass the afternoon while people were hanging out in the Lab...

Best read by people with insomnia. :)


Do you have a best friend that knows you inside and out?
No. Hell, I don't even know myself inside and out.

Do you think that you're a good person?
I have my days but nothing, and certainly no behavior, is ever so black and white.

Do you believe in love at first sight?
No. To love there must be trust and understanding.

When was the last time you cried?
Earlier today.

Do you like to cuddle?
I'm a total slut about it

Who was the last person you hung out one-on-one with?
JJ

Have you ever made-out with a complete stranger?
Yes, my friends were stunned. Funny thing is that I made out with the Blade-look-alike at the bar on the night of my birthday then ran into him in Central Park two days later.

Do you think you will have a good love life this year?
Sex I can do. Love? Not so much.

What do you get complimented about most?
used to be my hair. Now that looks like crap so it is boobs or eyes.

Do you get distracted easily?
if is something I don't care about. However I can also get hyper-focused on things and miss a burning building too.

Do you have a best friend?
no

Do you trust people easily?
not at all

Has anyone ever told you that they like you more than a friend?
yes

Have you ever fallen for your best friend's guy/girl?
no

Is there anybody that you trust 100%?
not any more

Anyone love you?
that is a good question. I don't know.

What are you doing tomorrow?
Movies!!! Wall-e and Wanted are coming out. Then Flog-a-pallooza in the evening.

Do you think you would make a good wife/husband?
*snort* depends on what you mean by that. I am an excellent cook. A lousy housekeeper. Incredibly faithful and loyal but expect the same. I don't get 'headaches', have a high sex-drive and own a wide variety of toys. I drink, cuss like a sailor and enjoy hanging out with the guys. Depending on who you are, any of those qualities can make me a good wife or a bad one I suppose.

Last thing you got in the mail?
bills and some art from a friend

What does your last text message read?
"You do have a great point."

When is the last time you saw number 1 on your top friends?
Tuesday night

What are you listening to right now?
"Coin-Operated Boy" by Dresden Dolls

Is there something you wish you could tell someone but can't?
nah

Would you kiss the last person you kissed again?
yes, in a heartbeat

Does the last person you shared a bed with mean anything to you?
yes. He means much more to me than I would like.

Do you sleep with the TV on?
not usually. I don't even allow one in my bedroom although I have occasionally fallen asleep in front of it. Twice in the last two weeks actually.

Who was your last call from?
Ed

When was the last time you fell asleep with a girl?
Couldn't tell you. It has been a long, long time. By far the majority of my friends are men.

Where did your last hug take place?
bar

Do you like country music?
yes. although, like all genres, some of it does nothing for me

Have you ever had someone sing to you?
yes

If your being extremely quiet what's it mean?
I'm just being me. I am often quite and do not feel that every moment must be filled by some noise, especially not chatter.

What is your favorite flavor ice cream?
Chubby Hubby or Godiva's chocolate raspberry truffle.

Have you ever bought anything from a sex shop?
Ha! I could open my own sex shop if I wanted.

Do you have any bruises, from what?
I am covered in bruises. On one arm from the whip. On the other arm from goofing around with a friend. On my legs I have them from the mutt puppy, moving boxes and simple clumsiness on my part.

How long does it take you to get ready to go out?
Anywhere from 5 minutes to 45 minutes.

Last movie you watched?
Kung Fu Panda

Who did you watch it with?
just the strangers in the theatre

Has anyone ever told you they're in love with you?
Yes

Do you own plaid pants/skirt?
Indeed I do.

Do you give your lovers pet names?
I often call lovers my pet although I have used others as well.

Have you ever gone a whole day without eating?
I once went 32 days without eating so yes, I have gone an entire day without eating.

Do you chew cotton candy or suck on it until it disolves?
YUM!!! I am a sucker.

How do you feel about the person that you've become?
I am awesome and getting better every day as I continue to learn more about myself and the world.

Do you like change?
It's okay. I prefer bills.

Who owns your house?
Me and the mortgage company

Who bought you the clothes your wearing?
me

Who is at your house?
No one. I live alone and am at work right now. (at least I hope no one is there right now!)

What car do you drive?
a forest green '97 Ford Exploder

What was the best day of your life?
I can't say. I have had many wonderful days.

What is the last vacation you took?
I went to Chicago with my pet last November

Where is your boy/girl friend?
hiding from me

When did you graduate?
ha! '85, '99, '02, '04 and perhaps again in '09

When was the last time you had a fruit smoothie?
Sunday

Why do boys/girls play hard to get?
I don't know why people play games at all. I find it all incredibly frustrating!

How do you fix your hair?
I usually just wash, comb and go.

How often do you say I love you?
it has been a while

Who was the best kisser you have kissed?
JJ

Best sex you've ever had?
Chuck

Do you know any deep dark secrets from your ex?
yes, I know lots of secrets

Anyone who just recently got engaged?
yes. They are a great couple too!

Know anyone who is in jail?
yes

Do you believe in magic?
some

What is the most trouble you have ever been in?
I have been in lots and lots of trouble over the years.

If you won the lottery, what's the 1st thing you would buy?
plane tickets

What if you or your partner found out they were pregnant tomorrow?
It would apparently be a miracle of some sort.

What if you found out your partner had a sex change?
I would be disappointed that it had been a secret up until that point but I don't think I'd care. The spirit is what is important, not the body parts or packaging.

If you were to drown in a liquid, other than water, what would it be?
Guinness would be nice way to go. Or Hershey's Dark syrup

If you could start a charity, what kind would you start?
I am leaning towards a shelter for abused animals

If the world ended tomorrow, do you think you will go to heaven?
No, but I have been promised a nice condo in hell.

If you had to move out of the state you're in, what state would you move to?
I have always wanted to live in Alaska but still want to move to New York too. Guess it would depend on the circumstances

If you could be forgiven for one thing in your life, what would you choose?
just one? I have made lots and lots of mistakes.

If you could choose how you die, how would it happen?
hmmm...can I be sexed to death???

If you could sing one song, beautifully and perfectly, what one?
Amazing Grace

If you could only eat one food for the rest of your life, what would it be?
pizza

If your body odor was a food scent, what food would you want to smell like?
peppermint

If you were given a year supply of something, what would it be?
gasoline! I love the Exploder but this one is a gas hog.

If you were given a prop from a movie/t.v. show, what would it be?
I want Xena's chakram

What if a friend asked you to go with her to get an abortion?
I would, of course, go with and support her.

What color are your bed sheets?
right now the black satin ones are on the bed

Do you take vitamins?
yes

Where will you be going on vacation this summer?
nowhere. I am broke.

What charities or places do you donate stuff/money to?
Best Friends and Animal Ark

Do you get sick easily?
no

Have you ever been to a funeral that had an open casket?
yes. I have been to many more funerals than I would like and only one had a closed casket.

Do you spend your money on luxury stuff on a regular basis?
Depends on how you are defining luxury. It isn't fancy shit any more but it is often more that the basics required for survival.

When was the last time you took a bath?
a couple weeks. I love bubble baths but have been awfully busy

What's your favorite thing to do on a rainy day?
snuggle up and read a book

Are your toenails painted?
yes, they are bright fuchsia with white flowers on the big toe

Where was your last alcoholic beverage drank?
I had several beers last night at the bar

When was the last time you actually looked at someone and felt a spark?
Each time I see my special person.

How old was the last person you hugged?
19

Has someone ever told you they want to spend the rest of their life with you?
yes

Is it okay for guys to wear pink?
Of course. I think men should be able to wear whatever the hell they like just as most women do.

When was the last time you wrote a letter to someone on paper?
a couple days ago

Who was the last person to play with your hair?
JJ

Are you easily scared by horror/thriller film?
no, there is only one thing that scares me and it isn't in movies

The Craziest Rumor I've Heard About Myself Is:
that I fucked my gay friend at work in my pick-up truck bed.

The Next Place I'd Love To Travel To Is:
Really I'd like to go just about anywhere but I would love to make it to Greece

Have You Ever Asked A Guy Out In The Past:
yes

The Best Part Of Being In A Relationship Is:
the connection and knowing that someone will be there for you at the end of a crappy day

If You Open My Purse Right Now, You'd Find:
hell, I don't even know where my purse is right now much less what the hell is in it.

Can You Have A Good Relationship Without Amazing Sex:
yes, but the sex helps!!

When was the last time you slept in someone else's bed?
Last November

Are there people on your MySpace page that you would date or go on a date with?
I have dated a few

You're really upset; who is the first girl you go to?
I don't go to people when I am upset. I prefer to be alone then.

Do you have any expensive jewelry?
Yes, by far the most expensive thing I own is a piece of jewelry.

Do you think you have made a difference in anyone's life?
yes

Does a heartbreak feel as bad as it sound?
worse

Were you a planned baby?
No. I was an accident and was often reminded of the fact as a child.

How high/low is your self esteem?
Much, much higher than it ought to be.

Are you an extrovert or an introvert?
introvert

Are you comfortable with the way you look?
Yes. It would be nice to be beautiful again but I am okay with where I am at.

Were you a strange child?
most definitely! I am a strange adult too.

Was there anything in your past that was traumatizing?
yes

Do you like walking in the rain?
yes but it isn't as fun as kissing in the rain

What was the price of gas when you got your license?
$.97 I am olllllldddddd.......

If someone liked you right now, would you want them to tell you?
certainly!

When was the last time you did the dishes?
about a week ago

Do you put butter before putting the jelly on?
ewww...I don't like butter and wouldn't dream of putting it on something that was going to have jelly on it.

Favorite shoes you have EVER owned?
Red leather granny boots with the fishnet and chains. Bought them in Berlin back in '88. They were awesome!

Favorite fruit?
cherries

What was your first car?
'73 Plymouth Valient. I would love to have another one someday. The slant-6 engine was great!

Who is the first person you call when you have a bad day?
no one. I suck it up and deal with it.

What is the first thing you do in the morning?
let the dog out

What was the first concert you attended?
Very first? Elvis. That I actually remember? AC/DC

What was the last movie you saw in a theater?
Kung Fu Panda

Whose car did you ride in last and where to?
Matt's out to dinner and a movie

Do any of your jeans have rips, tears, and holes in them?
yep! The ones I am wearing right now are full of them

Is there someone you can't stop thinking about?
yes

Is there anyone that can't stop thinking about you?
No clue

Where is your number one person on your friends list?
I have no idea.

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
yes but he was (OBVIOUSLY!) quite mistaken

Did anybody ever call you beautiful?
yes

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoo?
yes, I still want my back tattoo that I had designed but cannot afford

How do you feel about chocolate covered strawberries?
love 'em!

What do you smell like?
pomegranates

Do you think too much or too little?
way too much. to the point of being obsessive

Do you smile a lot?
not really

Who was the last person you cried in front of?
JJ

What is the last book you read?
The Historical Illuminatus Trilogy

Are you reliable?
yes

Have you ever had a secret admirer?
not that I know of

Have you ever been scuba diving?
yes, in St Thomas.

Would you ever go skydiving?
I'd love to!

Do you enjoy challenges?
yes

What's the worst injury you have had?
That would either be the damage from when my skin tore open from illness or after my truck accident.

Do you have any obsessions right now?
always

What's your favorite fruity scent?
right now I am hooked on Midnight Pomegranate from Bath & Body Works although I love the smell of green apples too

Do you like sushi?
very much!

Have you ever been hurt?
*snort* yes

Ever cheated on someone?
no

Ever been in jail?
yes

Are you much more mature than those your own age?
no. If anything I am probably much more immature than most people my age. A benefit of being single and childless I suppose.

Do you love anyone?
yes

do they know you love them?
well, I have told him that I love him but whether he actually believes it and knows it to be true I cannot say.

look at a poster in your room, who's on it?
hehe...I haven't decorated with posters in 20 years

do you like working in the yard?
most of the time, yes. I love digging in the dirt and growing things. When it is 90 and muggy out? No, then it is every man/plant for himself... :)

who was the last person to make you cry?
Me. I am the one who makes up the delusions in an attempt to fool myself. I must accept the blame when they all come tumbling down as well.

do you trust your friends?
trust no one

do you hang with phony people?
Sure, on occasion.

do you think you're the only person who notices small things?
certainly not! Sometimes I miss even the obvious that is right in front of my nose.

do you believe in god?
not as defined by any of the major religions

would you rather work or go to school?
School. I would love to go for the rest of my life if I could.

are you sensitive?
I can be. Sometimes I am overly so. Sad but true.

who makes dinner in your home?
me. I keep trying to convince the 4-legged kids to pitch in around the house but they aren't having it.

do you have small regrets?
yes. I have some damned big ones too...

is there anyone you would give your life for?
yes

do you prefer fun or boredom?
Seriously??? Who the hell is going to pick boredom? I will admit there has been some excitement in my life that made me prefer boredom, but who would choose it over fun?

I've Been on TV: fact
I've Been in an Earthquake: fact
I've met a celebrity: fact
I've been stuck in an elevator: fiction
I've seen a ghost: fact
I've cut my own hair: fact
I've stayed overnight on a boat: fact
I've stayed in my pajamas all day within the last year: fact
I like rainy days better than sunny ones: fact
I've seen a single movie more than 10 times: fact
I eat peanut butter right out of the jar: fact
I've eaten sushi: fiact
I hate a food that most people love: fact
I love a food that most people hate: fact
I dont mind touching a worm with my bare hand: fact
I've ridden a camel: fact
I've eaten octopus: fact
I've caught a fish: fact
I've seen a baby animal being born: fact
I've touched a real dolphin: fact
I've ridden in a hot-air balloon: fiction


Do you think your last ex deserves to die?
no. I have chosen well enough so even though I do not like any of them any more I don't wish them ill either.

Have you kissed someone in the past week?
yes

Who do you tell the most to?
JJ

What do you carry with you at all times?
my cell phone, lip goo

When was the last time you saw your grandpa?
several years ago as he died

Do you know anyone with cancer?
yes

Have you lost friends in the past 3 years?
yes

Are you tan?
yes

Do you have unlimited texting?
yes

How do you like your grilled cheese?
golden brown with pickle slices. Mmmm...that sounds good! Wonder if I have any bread at home that isn't green and fuzzy...

How many speeding tickets have you gotten?
1

Where did you get your couch from?
I have never owned a couch

How do you make eggs?
fried, scrambled, sunny side up, fritattas, hard boiled, deviled

Where do you wash your clothes?
my laundry room

Which parent do you look most like?
used to be my father but since he is dead, was burned to ashes and is in a little cardboard box now I suppose I currently look more like my mother...

What would be the best gift someone could get you right now?
Eh. I don't need a thing.

What is the oldest thing in your fridge?
that is a scary question! I haven't been in my fridge for a week or so.

On your keyboard what key is wearing out from pressing it so much?
none. Just got a new keyboard last week

Where do you put your keys when you come home?
in a bowl by the front door

Where did you go for Thanksgiving?
my sister's house and the home of the sister of my guy at the time

Would you have a one night stand with your favorite movie star?
no. As much as I think LL is hot, he is married... *sigh*

What color is your house?
light grey and white

What kind of alcoholic drinks are in your fridge right now?
three kinds of beer and a bottle of white wine

Opinion of Chinese symbol tattoos?
I think they are stupid unless you happen to actually know Chinese

Have you ever fired a gun?
I have fired many guns. In fact, now that you mention it. I am about due for a trip to the gun range.

Ever been in a cop car in real life?
Yes, but I have never been in one in pretend life...

If you HAD to get a tattoo where would you get it?
the next one I want will be on my upper back

Would you rather love one person or have many short relationships?
one person

If you were given 10 million dollars what would you do with it?
travel, build a log home and help animals

What makes your bedroom unique?
Just the way it is decorated

Who is the last person that hurt your feelings?
that is not important

Would you consider plastic surgery?
yes, and when I can afford it I may actually do so

Last time you masturbated?
this morning

When is the last time you prayed?
that has been much longer

Do you watch porn?
yes

Do you still have stuffed animals?
yes

Do you own a dildo or vibrator?
yes, several

Do you wish your boobs were bigger?
yep, perkier too!

Do you consider yourself trust worthy?
yes

Would you be a different person today if you had a different childhood?
yes, of course

How would you spend your time if you were wealthy?
traveling

Do You Have demons in your life?
yes

Are You Happy?
for the most part

What would you say is your worst flaw?
I have many flaws. Which one is the worst depends entirely on the circumstances of the moment. I don't trust others. I procrastinate. I can be lazy. I am stubborn.

What is your biggest worry in life right now?
I either need to earn more or spend a hell of a lot less...

Do you give up easily?
no. I tend to keep trying long after I should have given up.

Do you work out?
yes

Have you ever kissed a person of the same sex?
yes

What candy can you eat a whole bag of without getting sick?
I don't think I could eat a whole bag of anything without getting sick.

Did any particular thing brighten up your day?
nope

Does anyone think you are a bitch?
Yep! They are right too... :)

Why did your last relationship end?
Not only is the answer to this question complicated, the question itself is complicated... I shall have to defer.

Have you ever woke up next to someone and smiled?
yes

Do you plan on dressing up for Halloween this year?
yes

Do you like deviled eggs?
Love 'em!!! Thanks Bri! :)

Last time you sucked on a cough drop?
last winter

What website is set as your homepage?
Google

Have you ever been water skiing?
yes

Do you wear a toe ring?
some times

Have/would you ever considered adoption?
yes

Do you find happiness in the little things?
yes, when I am not busy being pathetic and feeling sorry for myself

Are you scared of clowns?
nope

Can you write a poem that moves people?
occasionally they do so and other times they are just words

Name the order of every single text in your inbox?
WTH? Well, the first one is first, then comes the second one...

Would you ever consider moving to Zimbabwe?
you bet!

What's the worst movie you've ever seen?
"Even Cowgirls Get the Blues" Without a doubt, the worst. Great book! Terrible movie.

Do you meet new people often?
yes

Are you annoyed with anyone in your house?
I live alone and amazingly enough I still get irritated at the person in my house... :D

What color are your nails?
fingers are pink, toes are magenta

Are you wearing diamonds?
not today

Do you make hearts over your i's?
hell no!

How many boys do you have buying you things?
none. I buy my own shit and hang out with men rather than boys. Seriously? WTF?

Are you afraid of mice or spiders or both?
neither

What does your mousepad have on it?
one is an M.C. Escher print, the other is covered in bugs

Does someone have to walk you to your car in the dark?
um no. I am the person who walks others to their car. However, my pet used to walk me out to my car all the time at the end of the night just to be sweet, not because it was dark.

When was the last time you ate a doughnut?
it's been months

Do you ever doodle your name with your crush's last name?
uh, no. I am not a little girl, much less a girly-girl.

Do you drink water from the tap or just bottled water?
mostly tap water although I do occasionally buy an Evian

Would you step on a roach with your bare foot?
no but then I wouldn't step on a bug with shoes on either. I don't kill bugs, just take them outside.

When is the last time you had a latte?
Sunday

If you could have any pizza in the world... What pizza would you have?
I could go for Galactic Pizza or Pizza Luce

Have you ever thought of going over 100 miles just to meet someone?
yes, I once went 1206 miles just to meet someone

Why did you get your MySpace?
To keep in touch with my friends from Hamline since they were all on here.

If you look outside can you see a field?
yes

Do you love anyone who is blonde?
yes

If you were in a really bad mood who would you talk to to make you happy?
It is up to me to make myself happy

Do you have jealous tendencies?
yes, I am afraid so

Are morals important to you?
yes, very much so

Have you ever had a reoccurring nightmare that wouldn't go away?
yes

Are you a friendly/approachable person?
apparently more than I would like considering when I go out to write or study I constantly get people interrupting me to chat.

If given the choice what genre of movie would you like to star in?
horror

Who out of your friends has the next birthday coming up?
Sarah

What's your favorite breakfast food?
I don't normally eat breakfast although I do love bacon...

What are your plans for this weekend?
hmmm...movies, Flog-a-pallooza, Rope Bondage class, Leather Pride,

Least favorite household chore?
dusting

When is the last time you walked into a spider web?
most nights when I get home. There is a spider who keeps making one across the opening in my hedges. I think she figures that if she just captures me she and her progeny are set!

Do you like e-mail or snail-mail better?
I use e-mail because it is fast but I love snail mail.

What soda do you like to drink the most?
I hardly ever drink soda although I do enjoy an occasional grape soda or a cherry Pepsi.

Last time you ate an egg roll?
It has been months although that sounds really good! I want sweet and sour chicken too...

Have you ever been on the news?
yes

Do you have any long distant online friends?
yes

What do you think of iPhones?
They look great but too expensive for me