Rising Up From The Ashes

Yeah, another night where I didn't sleep so well and my thoughts are occupied by things other than work so I spent my day messing around with a long survey so I at least looked productive.




Favorite object in your room?
Depends on the room I suppose but chances are good that it is my vibrator…I have them in a number of different rooms. One of the advantages to living alone with limited visitors.

What flavor do you add to your drink at Sonic?
I have never been to Sonic even though they built one about a mile from my house last year. I'm not much of a fan of fast food places.

Favorite song?
I have loads of songs I like but "When Doves Cry" has been near the top of the list for a long, long time

What do you prefer to drink in the morning?
guess that depends on if I am still up or just getting up. Monster if I am up and cramming. Tequila if I am up and getting into trouble. Protein drink if I am up and planning to be productive.

Can you do pushups?
not plural. My bra does a rather fine job of pushing things up where I like them though. :)

What's your favorite restaurant?
Morton's

Do you like blue cheese?
well enough to be able to spell it correctly. Actually bleu cheese is my favorite dressing and near the top of my favorite cheeses

Ever been in a car wreck?
yep! The worst was when the semi dropped his load on another car and me. He did all sorts of nasty things to my face and my truck of three days!

Current worry?
that the person I care most about feels that I think he is nice only because he has bought me things. Of course, in the past I worried that he felt I only liked him because he is good looking so it is certainly possible that I simply worry too much…

What are you craving right now?
isolation, I'm thinking of hibernating for the winter

Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
Never tried them until last spring but I am hooked. They are fabulous!

What's in your pocket?
which one? front left: cell phone; front right: keys, change, pink quartz; rear left: scratch paper with a poem on it; rear right: coupon and gift certificates to the book store

Worst injury you've ever had?
it's a toss up between the aforementioned accident with my truck or my stupid 'mystery' illness

What was the first think you thought of when you woke up?
why the hell is my damned dog making those horrid noises when I am supposed to be getting to sleep in today?!?

Best way for you to de-stress after a hard day?
snuggling up with someone I care about and knowing that all the shit 'out there' doesn't really matter at all

As a kid, did you like to read?
All the time! Everything I could get my hands on. I'm pretty much the same way now.

The main goal of your life is to...?
challenge preconceived notions

A word that accurately describes your personality:
eccentric

A philosophy that you try to live by:
live and let live

Do you ever secretly look down on someone because of their "label?"
Well, I try not to but cannot say that I have always been successful.

Why does almost everyone detest country music?
because they never give it a fair shot. Like all genres, some is great and some sucks ass.

What is one talent/skill that you wish you could master?
I wish I had some musical talent.

Would you consider yourself an independent person?
Yes, I have always had to be.

How do you handle bad arguments?
Badly

What is one of your favorite quotes?
"Milk is for babies. I drink beer." Arnold Schwarzenegger

What is something you do that is wasteful?
I drive too much. Spend time goofing around on the computer.

Are you "blunt," or do you sugarcoat your words?
It depends. I try to be nice but I have limited patience and sometimes I am just plain an ass without meaning to be.

When a stranger greets you, what's your general reaction?
What do you want?

If you planned a roadtrip, where would you go?
I'd be happy to plan one just about anywhere since I would like to get away for a few days but I'd love to make it to Alaska.

Is there a movie you LOVE, but everyone else seems to hate?
I am a huge fan of the classics, particularly Marilyn Monroe but everyone else I know thinks they are boring.

What is one way to win over your heart?
Be honest

What is the worst possible thing that someone could do to you?
lie and cheat

Do you have a favorite memory?
I have lots of great memories can't pick just one favorite.

The first band you remember liking?
The Monkees

What is your favorite thing about the opposite gender?
eyes, ass, muscles in general, the way they think

What is your favorite thing about your own gender?
physically? boobs! Otherwise, I am usually impressed with the way women will stand by the person they love no matter what – even when they really shouldn't.

What's worse for you--being thirsty, or being hungry?
Thirsty.

Why do people argue over whether cats or dogs are better?
I have no clue! I don't understand why people argue in general

Would you rather be an only child, or have 6 bro's and sis's?
only child.

What is your favorite season, and why?
Autumn by far. The changing color of leaves and getting to crunch through them when I walk. Apple cider, apple crisp, bon fires, warm days, cool nights – perfect for snuggling! What's not to like?

Do you deal well with guilt?
Not at all. Which is probably just as well. It makes me be a better person since I do my best to avoid anything that would make me feel guilty.

Are you impulsive?
I can be.

Manipulative?
No. I'd rather do for myself than have someone do something for me they are not willing to do freely.

What is your favorite word?
right now I am enjoying 'asshat'

How did your first relationship end?
I learned he was cheating on me.

Do you pay particular attention to what you eat?
Yeah, I have been lately.

When your home alone, do you still close the door when you use the restroom?
not all the way

If you have to go grocery shopping, would you rather go alone or with someone?
depends on if I am buying food just for myself or to share

It's your friend's birthday, do you buy them a gift even though they didn't buy you one for yours?
Yes. I love to give gifts and do not do it out of a sense of obligation but because I want to make them happy.

You win the lottery. What do you do?
buy a mini Cooper, a '59 Cadillac convertible and travel

Do you like your music loud or at a reasonable level?
LOUD! In my old truck they could hear me from blocks away.

When do you prefer to take a shower, morning or night?
morning, otherwise my hair just looks goofy all day

Can you watch scary movies alone?
Of course. I am the protector, never the protectee.

Soft bed or firm?
firm

Would you rather stay home all day, or be out and about?
I have a tendency to lock myself up in my house and never come out. I have been trying to improve on that over the last couple years but I am about ready to give up.

What are your plans for October?
nothing really fantastic. Last year I had too many plans for the month. This year hardly anything is going on.

If money were not a problem, where would you like to live?
in a log home out in the middle of no where but unless I manage to win the lottery and no longer need to work for a living that isn't likely to happen.

What is one fear that you can't seem to overcome?
if you know me, you already know and if you don't, it is none of your business

Would you rather have roommates or live alone?
alone

Do you like to drive?
love it! I keep thinking I should have grown up to be a truck driver.

You're having a bad day, what's one thing can make your day better?
copious quantities of alcohol

What is your favorite breakfast food?
I'm not really a breakfast person but I do love bacon!

Your phone rings at 4am, who do you expect it to be?
no one. I don't get late night phone calls any more

Do you ever wonder what your ex is up 2?
only if he seems to be exhibiting stalker-like behaviors

What is your all-time favorite romance movie?
Secretary. I'm also a fan of "Breakfast at Tiffany's" sappy, I know…

Do a lot of people think you're pretty?
nah. I can pull off beautiful but pretty and cute are not really my thing.

Do you have strong feelings for anybody right now?
yeah

Do you think your ex still loves you?
I don't think my ex ever really loved me. Want to possess me like an object for show? sure! but love? no

What is your favorite thing to wear?
a bathrobe and fuzzy slippers

Last thing you ate?
beef jerky

Does anyone you know want to date you?
there are plenty of people who don't know me that want to date me

Do you love anyone?
yes

Whose bed did you sleep in last night?
my own

Have you ever bungee jumped?
no, not yet.

Have you ever gone white-water rafting?
yes

What was the last movie you watched?
Iron Man

What are you wearing right now?
rolled up jeans, black tee, white socks, black skull tennies

What's your favourite song right now?
I have been enjoying Pink's "So what" quite a bit

Have you ever had your mouth washed out with soap?
no, mom used Tabasco instead. Just led me to love really spicy foods!

What is one thing you spend way too much money on?
gas

Have you ever been in a fist fight?
yes

Were YOU the one who started it?
No, I have never started a fight without someone laying their hands on me first.

Where's the weirdest place you've ever kissed someone?
weirdest location or weirdest part of their body?

What's the most you've drank in a night?
an entire bottle of tequila and two beers. Not something I would recommend.

Have you ever considered suicide?
yes

What are 2 of your favourite movies?
Hard Candy and Lion King

What was your favourite pet?
my adorable, blond-haired, blue-eyed one. Non-human? Renaldo, my black angora kitty

Do you have any secrets that nobody knows?
yes

Do you have any plans for new years yet?
nope

Have you ever made out on your bed?
not on my current bed

Do you know anyone who has messed up your life?
yes, it was me. I have done a bang up job of fucking things up on several occasions.

are you good at hiding your feelings?
most of the time although I have blown it a few times too

do you trust people easily?
no

do you give out second chances easily?
no, it is rare but I have done so when the person is really special to me

how do you feel about change?
it is inevitable

has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
yes

where's your shirt from?
House of Pain

Favorite object in your bedroom?
my bed

Do you own guns?
yes

What does your last sent text say?
"Awesome! I didn't even know you were lifting weights"

Do certain songs remind you of certain people?
yep!

What is the last thing you used your own money for?
I pretty much only use my own money. Haven't had any one offer to let me blow all of their cash.

Have you ever had a best friend that was a member of the opposite sex?
yes, several times

How often do you shower?
at least once a day

Red, blue, or black pens?
blue

Small or big dogs?
big! The yippy ones drive me nuts.

Who is the last to sleep in your bed?
I am the only one to have ever slept in my bed

Favorite Day of the Year?
November 7

What books are you reading?
"Witchdame," "Half Asleep in Frog Pajamas," "Religious Literacy," "The Road of Lost Innocence"

Favorite flower?
jasmine or gardenias

Are you allergic to anything?
dogs and dust. My house has both

Do you realize it when you curse?
yes – I curse far too often.

If you are being extremely quiet what does that mean?
nothing, I am usually quite

What's your favorite card game?
cribbage

Who was the last person to call you?
Alecia

Has anyone ever tried to shove their religion in your face?
yes

Are you wearing make up?
nope

Who is the last text in your inbox from and what does it say?
ha! My last text was a multi-media event. A picture of a bicep with text that reads "U like these guns" and audio that says "Get your tickets to the gun show!"

What's the most recent CD you've bought?
Doll Domination

Are you much more mature than those your own age?
depends on the aspect, in many ways I am probably more immature since I never had kids. In other ways I am more mature because I can be less superficial.

Did the one person who hurt you the most in your life apologize?
no, doesn't really matter any more though

Do you know a secret about your ex and if he/she pisses you off will you tell?
nah. I know plenty of secrets but I am not willing to use them like that.

Who was the last person to give you a ride somewhere?
I rarely ride with other people. I either give the ride or just drive myself. I have had far too many people flake out on me and leave me places. I'd rather know how I am getting home when I leave it.

Have you ever kissed anyone who;s name started with a J?
every chance I get. He has two J's so his kisses are twice as nice!

Is any part of your body sore?
yes. I'd be irritated with myself if it wasn't.

Do you care if people hate you for no reason?
not really although it seems pretty stupid to do so when there are plenty of good reasons to hate me

Have you ever done something outrageously dumb?
far more often than I would like

Have you told anybody you loved them today?
no

Are you better at math or art?
math

Science or History?
science. I am terrible when it comes to history.

Do you own a digital camera?:
yes (Thanks Amanda!)

How old is the cellphone you have right now?:
not even a week (Thanks JJ!)

How many funerals have you been to in your lifetime?:
way too many. I had a three month period a year ago where I lost seven people I was close to.

When was the last time you were at a mall?
last Wednesday

What radio station would be playing in your car right now?
nothing better be playing in my truck right now since I am inside but I have no clue what the radio is set to since I primarily listen to CDs

Do you have somebody clean your house?
ha! sadly, no.

To whom did you last give the finger?
some dipshit who needs to either learn to drive better or get a bigger car

Is there anyone who doesn't like you?
lots

Have you ever seen someone you knew and purposely avoided seeing him?
yes

What's the last thing you cried about?
stupid mistakes

Who was the last person who yelled at you?
people don't often yell at me but the last guy who did was someone who was driving like an idiot and I flipped him off. He followed me to the gas station and started yelling at me until I climbed out of my truck. He then took off pretty fast.

What is your natural hair color?
dark brown with red highlights and far more grey than I would like

Do you have trust issues?
yes. Current people get punished for the losers of my past.

When was the last time you were really sick?
last January

Have you ever been called a bad influence?
lots of times!

Have you ever thought of having plastic surgery?
yep

Have you ever cried yourself to sleep?
of course

Do you keep grudges, or can you let them go easily?
it depends. If I forgive you, then it is gone. If I don't, I can hold the grudge forever.

Last game you played and with who?
Bad Baby with some guys at the coffee shop

When was the last time you had your hair cut?
middle of July

When did you last eat chicken fajitas/a chicken quesadilla?
last Friday I had a buffalo chicken fajita. YUM!

Have you ever driven more than 5 hours to spend a few hours with someone?
yes

Who do you admire the most in your family?
my niece and nephews are awesome! The rest can all go to hell.

What was your last dream about?
nothing nice

I say Shotgun, you say:
more ammo!

Who would you like to see right now?
Ed McMahon holding one of those giant checks made out to me.

If you could pack up and move, would you?
I have been awfully tempted lately

Is there something that reminds you of someone every time you see / hear it?
loads of things. I can be overly sentimental.

Have you ever been nice to someone who treated you like crap?
sure

Have you lost contact with someone you wish you didn't?
Yes a few people seem to have dropped off the face of the earth. Perhaps they went into the witness protection program.

Is there someone you will never forget?
There are several people like that

Do you have a box where you keep all your really important things, like notes, photos?
yes

Have you read a whole book in a day?
many, many times.

Do you still watch kiddy movies or TV shows?
often! I'm really just a giant kid

Why aren't you in bed?
because it is about time to go drinking!

Did you do laundry today?
no, I have a huge (and I mean HUGE!) pile of stuff to get done. Fortunately, I have lots of clothes

Do you subscribe to any magazines?
quite a few

Do you ever buy the same shirt in different colors?
sometimes. Hell, sometimes I'll buy a couple in the same color.

Last time you rode a bicycle?
a few weeks ago

Can you touch your toes?
yes, I can still place my hands flat on the floor

Ever been on a blind date?
yes, it was incredibly uncomfortable! Not sure how much was the blind date part, how much was the fact that it was a double date and how much was because the guy had a crush on me and was so nervous the whole time that he could barely talk or eat.

Last wedding you attended?
that of a couple people I know in the community.

Ever been in a cop car?
yes

Do you like Michael Jackson?
I did back when he was still black

Do you eat eggs?
often! I could really go for a broccoli and salmon fritatta right now.

Have you ever tried illegal drugs?
yes

Have you ever made out with one of your top friends?
yes!

Have you ever been in a play?
yes

Do you like clowns?
I don't really care either way

Ever had your driver's license suspended?
no

Would you ever dye your hair purple?
every chance I get! :)

Have you ever cheated on a bf/gf?
no

What is one thing that all of your ex's have in common?
they were all dumb enough to lose me! heheh

Ever thought you were pregnant and you really weren't?
no. Never even taken a pregnancy test. I am many things but not that irresponsible.

Do you look your age?
It is hard to say. People tell me I don't but they may just be trying to be nice.

Anything good happen yesterday?
it was date night! And I got one of those kisses that stick with you for days :D

What song is stuck in your head?
Chuck Berry! It's a classic.




Say something positive about yourself?
I get better and better every day!

Does it make you uncomfortable when you receive a compliment?
Depends. I just get irritated if I think it is a phony way to start a conversation with me. Sometimes the real ones will make me uncomfortable though.

What is the nicest thing someone did for you yesterday?
did I mention that kiss I got???

What makes waking up worthwhile?
getting to learn new things

Has there ever been a time when someone didn't accept your apology?
Yes. I am capable of being a complete ass sometimes without even realizing it until later when I stop to reflect on things.

How did you feel about that?
I felt bad but can understand.

Would you ever date someone if they were physically unattractive?
Beauty really is in the eye of the beholder. There are plenty of people I think are fantastic that my friends question and vice versa. I think everyone has something physically attractive about them.

Would you date someone smarter than you?
Sure. I have dated plenty people smarter than me. Dummies turn me off!

Describe the loneliest time in your life?
my marriage – enough said.

Are you accepting of other people's religions and beliefs?
Yes. None of us know for sure any great 'Truth' that is out there and maybe he/she can put a good word in for me when it is all over with.

Is there anything someone could say to really upset you/hurt your feelings?
Well that all depends on the person but if it is someone I care about of course they can.

Have you ever been bullied? How did it make you feel?
No, I tended to bully the bullies.

What were you doing at 10 last night?
snuggling on the bed and watching The Shield

Ever thrown up from a roller coaster or an amusement park?
nope! I love rides.

Are you talkative?
not normally but there are a few topics that will get me going

Latest you stayed up in the past week?
6 a.m.

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
yep! I have one of each in mind.

Does your phone ring in the middle of the night often?
no, not any more

Have you ever fallen asleep in someone's arms?
yes

Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
no but I do know someone who regularly calls me "Yummy"

Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
yes but then I have lived out of my vehicle so it was a given at the time.

Have you ever been betrayed by someone you thought you could trust?
oh yes!

What was on your mind mostly today?
someone I like a lot

The last time you were in the fridge, what were you looking for?
stuff to pack in my lunch

Ever sleep at work?
yes, I once had a job that paid me to sleep.

In the last conversation you had with yourself, either aloud or in your head, what did you say?
I'm chewing myself out for being an insensitive jerk yesterday.

Do you own a pair of Uggs?
several, I bought them way before they became trendy to own.

Have you ever experienced a "crazy ex"?
sure have

Do you like to cuddle?
Love it! In a perfect world, I would get to go about my day while snuggling with the one I care about.

Do you currently have a hickey?
nope. Never had one.

Do you know anyone with cancer?
yeah :(

Who did you last call babe/baby?
almost said it the other day but stopped myself. It has been years.

Who kills the spiders and bugs in your house?
no one better be killing anything in my house on purpose. Hell, last week I was taking a bubble bath and some big clumsy spider came racing along the edge of the tub and fell in the water. I scooped him out and put him somewhere safe so the cats couldn't get him until he recovered and crawled off on his own.

What is your favorite flavor of lifesavers?
Butter Rum although Pep-o-mint is a close second (and a good excuse to get a hottie in a dark room!)

What is the biggest amount of money you've ever had at one time?
On my person? $10,000

Has anyone ever accused you of being gay?
yeah, my family was convinced for years that I was gay since I was not married.

Do you own a kite?
no although I have considered getting one. As a kid I got one in my Easter basket every year and then dad would promptly get it caught in a tree while trying to teach me how to fly it. I still wanna try some day. Who knows, maybe I can manage to get it stuck in a tree all by myself!

Do you have nightmares very much?
often enough that I just consider them dreams now

Have you ever cried to get away with something?
nah. I may have tried it once as a kid but didn't work.

Do you use recycle bins at your house?
Yep! I recycle and compost. Even hugs trees on occasion.