Rising Up From The Ashes

You might think I have nothing else to do with the time spent on yet another long survey but that would be wrong. I do sometimes fill them out as a result of insomnia but more often than not I am doing them as a way to procrastinate.

Besides they are fun and allow me an outlet for my oversized ego...


What did you want to be when you grew up?
a detective, a doctor, a scientist

In what way do you wish your childhood was different?
my childhood sucked in a lot of ways and I have only a few good memories from that time and yet I don't think I'd change a thing because to do so would change who I am now, and that is pretty awesome.

Did you want to move out of your parent's house as soon as you could?
yep, and I did so too even though it meant having three jobs

Is there somebody you wish you could be with right now?
sure but it is a one sided thing so what can one do…

Is there one thing you want that you know you will never have?
yes, yes there is

Have you ever wished someone would just die?
far more often that I would like to admit

What's one thing you would change about yourself right now?
ummm…I'd like to be someone who had a nice stockpile of cash. Otherwise I am good.

Do you wish you were somewhere else?
I could go for a change but am not quite willing to give up my responsibilities and commitments yet although it has been tempting me quite a bit lately.

Would you want to be extremely rich or extremely smart?
I am already pretty smart and it just gets me into trouble. Give me the money!

Are you in the field of the career you always wanted?
for the most part

What do you want for dinner tonight?
I'd love sushi or a big ol' steak but instead I will be having a can of tuna and some broccoli.

What do you want to happen tomorrow?
hmmm…let's see…I'll wake up next to a hot love muffin. We'll have hours of passionate sex that will only be interrupted by Ed McMahon banging on the door with my giant winning lottery check. Then I'll make a few phone calls to find someone to care for all the critters and book airline tickets out of the country. After that? Who knows! Instead, I'll be happy to make it through the day without any major catastrophies.

Do you ever wish you could be numb to emotions?
yes, and when really pressed, I can be

Who do you wish was still in your life?
I have a few friends I miss but I was obviously mistaken about our friendship so it's all good.

Is there someone you'd do anything for to ensure their happiness?
yes

What is a hobby or pastime you wish you'd pick up?
I'm seriously considering sword fighting classes (Iaido). If I can scrape together the funds, I will be doing it.

Do you want to make love to someone right now?
well sure! Who wouldn't rather be doing that than killing time with a survey?

What do you look forward to in the future?
being a crazy old lady in a house full of cats

Are you home alone?
yep! I can't bring myself to share it with anyone even though a few pals are looking for places to live.

How's your heart?
allegedly it is ice cold

What was the first thing you did this morning?
cardio

Last person you went to the movies with?
Mieux

Do you miss someone?
nah, I've got good aim.
"Gun control means never having to say I missed you."

Have you ever done anything illegal?
The real question ought to be have I ever been caught

Where will you be 12 hours from now?
Hopefully sound asleep in bed

Has anyone ever borrowed something from you and never returned it back?
oh my yes! I rarely loan anything out any more.

What song are you listening to right now?
Thanks to Yva, I am listening to this flashback.




What did you do today?
gym, work, met with the ex and his lawyer, grabbed a few groceries…and the day is only half done

How's your health?
great! No problems at all

Last person to call you?
ex

Last person to text you?
also the stupid ex

Do you love anyone right now?
yes

How many texts are in your inbox?
around 50 or so. One of these days I'm going to work on getting better at letting things go. For now, I am still a sap and save a lot.

Who was the last person you talked to?
$%!%^$*&* ex

Does anyone like you as more than a friend?
I think so...

Who do you feel most comfortable talking to about anything?
hmmmmmmm.

What is something you really want right now?
a stiff cock or a stiff drink. Either would be really nice. Both would be heaven.

How late did you stay up last night and why?
much, much later than I should have. I got home around 1a but couldn't get to sleep until well after 3:30 even though I had to get up at 6.

If you could move somewhere else, would you?
in a heartbeat

Do you prefer to call or text?
Text for casual conversations. Face-to-face for anything more meaningful. My hearing sucks so I hate to talk on the phone because I miss half of what is said.

Who took your profile picture?
me

What annoys you a lot?
people who hang out in the left lane of the highway for no apparent reason

When is the next time you will hug someone?
probably not until next Tuesday

Are you wearing anything on your feet right now?
nail polish and a cute pair of strappy platform sandals

What are you eating?
blueberries and cottage cheese

What are your opinions of dragons?
I have a rather nice collection that I have amassed over the last 25 years

Do you know anybody who is prejudiced?
yes, I think we all are to some degree

What do you do when you get up in the morning?
let the dog out, pee, half hour of cardio, chug a protein drink then head to the gym

Your favorite word?
phenomenon – brings back memories of Sesame Street

Have you ever found anything gross in one of your McDonald's meals?
you mean besides the food?

Does your dad deserve the Best Dad Award?
My dad was great and did the best he could but he was certainly not the best – just as I have never been the best daughter

What do you want right now?
since my earlier response has not come to pass, I'll settle for a long soak in a bubble bath

How do you want to die?
I'm still hoping to be sexed to death

What are you wearing right now?
the aforementioned sandals, jeans, big white shirt, big silver ring, turquoise bracelet and lots and lots of turquoise necklaces

When was your last shower?
few hours ago

Do you wear your heart on your sleeve?
not really although it occasionally sneaks out there

Last movie seen in the theaters?
Dark Knight - so far I've seen it in theatres, outdoors and in IMAX.

Bedspread color?
black with silver and gold threads

Last fast food meal?
Arby's

Do you have any "frenemies"?
I sure do!

Did you kiss a girl?
yes

Did you like it?
yep!

What's your favorite zoo animal?
I've said it before; I'll say it again. Animals do not belong in zoos.

Did you have imaginary friends as a child?
nope but my adult friends are imaginary

Have you had a falling out with any of your friends lately?
*snort*

What character in any movie do you feel like and why?
I'd really like to be the Joker but am not quite there yet. One of these days though…

Would you ever consider changing your sex?
I suppose it is possible but I really like being a girl so it is unlikely.

What's your most important possession?
eh, I lost my most important possession. Now I just have stuff.

Do you have to like someone to love them?
overall yes, but I have continued to love someone at a moment when I didn't really like him

Do you know anyone who cuts?
yes, I know several cutters

Do you believe everyone deserves a second chance?
no

Have you ever called a person useless?
yes, and I was right too

Are you a jealous person?
unfortunately yes

If you could change your eye color would you?
No. I really like my eyes.

Ever kissed your number 1 on MySpace?
every chance I get!

Last person you told a secret to?
fuck that! I keep my own secrets. Confiding in others is just asking for trouble.

What's your favorite thing about Sundays?
sleeping in, breakfast and paper in bed, spending the day with someone I care about

Do you have a best friend[s] to lean on?
not any more.

What were you doing at 8:00 this morning?
lifting heavy things then putting them back down again

Do you like to have long hair or short hair?
short. I don't have the patience to spend an hour fixing it every day so when it is long it only looks good about one day a month.

If you were a reasonable age, would you prefer a baby boy or girl?
I don't care. If I do ever adopt, the poor kid is probably getting called Frankie no matter what. :)

What was the last thing you hid?
a present that I wanted to be a surprise

What was the last thing you read?
Erotic Comics: A Graphic History from Tijuana Bibles to Zap Comix by Tim Pilcher

Would you move to another state or country to be with the one you love?
yeah but I am a dumbass who will do just about anything for the one I love.

Would you make a good parent?
as long as the kid has 4 legs

Best place to eat?
Mortons

Favorite juice?
grape

Ever had a bar fight?
yes

When is the last time you had a massage?
December :(

Last person to lay in your bed
only one person has ever been in my bed besides me

Who do you blame for your mood today?
just me

Have you ever seen a dead body?
far more than is good for me

Do you drink lots of water?
right now I am practically floating.

The last compliment you received?
Someone who liked my hair. I have cute hair again thanks to a special someone who treated me to an afternoon at the salon.

When was the last time you threw up?
no clue. It has been years

When was the last time you were at a party?
a couple weeks ago

Are you a mama's child or a daddy's child?
I was a daddy's girl

What did you do/will you do for your birthday this year?
maybe Ground Zero, otherwise some friends are bugging me to have a party like I used to always do

If you won 1,000 dollars and had to split it with someone besides your significant other, who would you split it with?
my sister

Spend 6 months in jail & when you get out, you get a million dollars, tax-free. Would you do it?
sure, I could use a break!

What is the last thing you said to someone?
"Fortunately for me, I am the kind of person who doesn't give a crap if someone else likes my purse." But I said it with a smile. :)

Would you use your normal vocabulary if Jesus were standing beside you (in the flesh)?
probably

What's the last cartoon you watched?
Simpsons

Ever rode a motorcycle?
I ride every chance I get!

Have you ever really seen a water tower with someone's name painted on it?
yes

Where was the biggest bruise you've ever had and how did you get it?
on my thigh and hip, from mountain biking

Last person you texted?
Lorena

Who's MySpace password do you have?
Just mine. I don't understand why people share theirs.

Who was the last person you said "I love you" to?
JJ

What do you spend most of your money on?
mortgage and then gas

Did you give anyone a dirty look today?
you bet!

Has someone disappointed you recently?
Yes.

When is your next road trip?
Who knows? I had wanted to do Kinky Kollege again this year but that isn't going to happen. Right now I'll be doing well to have gas to last me through payday.

What woke you up this morning?
my alarm clock

What were your first words this morning?
"get the fuck outta my way!"

What are you doing right now?
multi-slacking. I'm watching videos, doing laundry, grilling a bunch of chicken and working on this

What do you want to do right now?
Something NC-17 / XXX.

What are you allergic to?
dogs and dust

When was the last time you slept on the floor?
over the weekend I feel asleep and took a nap on the floor

Have you ever seriously vandalized someone else's property?
yes

Have you ever been taken to the ER in an ambulance?
yes

Is your bathroom clean?
yes

Are you a dog or cat person?
cat

What were the last words you said to your Dad?
"I'll be okay. You can go now."

Do you know someone in the war?
yes a few

Did you get at least eight hours of sleep last night?
not even close

What was the last thing you ordered when you went out to eat?
Mediterranean omelet

Do you use soap or body wash?
body wash

Does your printer work?
yep, I even have an extra

Name 3 things you ate today?
almonds, hard boiled eggs, broccoli

Do you hold hands during horror movies?
I like to hold hands at all kinds of movies.

Have you ever been in a difficult relationship?
yes – I can be a difficult person. All my relationships are difficult.

If someone gave you 100 dollars, would you spend or save it?
pay bills

When you turn off your alarm clock, do you tend to go back to sleep?
YES!!! the snooze alarm is my friend

What do you need to go shopping for?
veggies, eggs, chicken, salmon

What are you doing on Saturday?
work, running errands, birthday party

Do you fold your underwear?
nope!

Holding hands or her/his arm around you?
when walking I prefer to just hold hands but otherwise both are nice

Do you like to cuddle?
love it!

Have you ever had your heart broken?
it has been completely destroyed

What color is your underwear?
white with martini glasses

Have you ever cheated on a partner?
no

Ever been cheated on?
yes

Do you believe that it is best to have a friendship first then love?
yes

Should men and women be expecting the other to buy the other gifts?
I don't think anyone should be expecting someone to buy them a gift.

Who on your top have seen you with no makeup?
JJ, Lorena, Mark, Megan and the other Mark

What's the closest thing to you that's liquid?
water and black cherry Fresca are equidistant to me hehehe…

Have you ever passed out?
yes

Have you ever told anyone you were okay when you really weren't?
of course

Have you ever fallen for your ex's best friend?
no

How many pillows do you sleep with?
just one

How have you felt today?
my lats and neck are a bit stiff but otherwise good

Last time you were at the playground?
about three weeks ago. We played on the swings.

Who was the last person or object you shared beds with?
Toki

Where was your default picture was taken?
my office

Do you consider yourself a neat freak?
nope, not at all!

Do you have anyone's clothes?
no, I have tons of my own. No need to borrow.

Do you have a fish tank?
no but I have been wanting one and now I am coveting one that someone I know is building. I keep seeing them listed on Craig's List so I figure I'll get one eventually.

Last place you took a plane to?
Vegas

If you found out you couldn't have kids, would you adopt?
yes, but I always figured I'd adopt if I had kids anyway

What is your preferred method of birth control?
Depo provera

Do you like to travel by plane?
no, I hate it! Unless an ocean needs to be crossed, I drive. If I'm gonna be abused it'll be by someone I care about not some dimwit I paid for the 'privilege.'

Have you ever made out in a bathroom?
yes

Has anyone ever hung up on you?
yes

If you had 100 dollars to spend on clothes, where would you go to shop?
DimOut, Frederick's or Torrid

What is on your bed right now?
Toki and maybe a cat

Do you name your stuffed animals?
only Toki, my others are nameless

Do you think you are an argumentative person?
rarely but on occasion the mood does strike me

Would you rather have a poodle or a rottweiler?
Rottie

What jewelry do you wear all the time?
nose ring and ear piercings (except the lobes)

How did you feel when you woke up today?
very, very sleepy

What do you eat on your hamburgers?
Yum! I could go for one with bacon, cheddar, BBQ sauce and grilled onions.

Do you open your eyes under water?
depends of whether I am wearing my contacts or not

Are you organized?
only in certain aspects

What do you do to relax before you fall asleep?
read, masturbate

Do you eat organic food?
often but not always

Last song you downloaded?
True Companion – have I mentioned that I can be an incredible sap???

Have you ever put Mentos in Coke?
yep!

Do you wear glasses?
some days but I usually do contacts when it is hot and muggy

How many pairs of shoes do you own?
~170

Do you play any instruments?
not well

What color is your camera?
silver

What is the closest green item to you?
piece of malachite

Last time you saw your mother?
Mother's Day

Do you drink Red Bull or any other energy drink?
I'm a Monster!

Have you ever been on television?
yes

Who's the most annoying person in your neighborhood?
one of my neighbors who used to be a good friend but now just spies on me for the ex

What was the last thing someone bought for you?
beer

Do you celebrate monthly anniversaries?
no

Last thing you listened to?
Lil Kim

What is the closest book to you?
Right now I am in my home office, there are 200+ books on the wall behind me.

Do you have any dogs? If so, what breeds?
Ruko is a Boxer and Great Dane mix

Any cats?
yes, 4

Any hamsters/guinea pigs?
no

Any farm animals?
no

What is the most expensive thing you own that plays music?
my truck

What is the furthest place you've traveled?
Italy

What color is your hair?
purple

Any highlights?
yes

Closest living thing to you?
mutt puppy

Anything planned for this Sunday?
demolition derby

Look out the window what's the first thing you see?
nothing. It's dark out and you can't see darkness

Has anyone ever called you perfect before?
yeah, obviously he was mistaken

Are you currently wanting any piercings or tattoos?
*sigh* yes

Has anyone ever told you you have pretty eyes?
many

How do you feel about chocolate covered strawberries?
Yum!

Favorite fair food?
Cotton candy with funnel cakes coming in a close second

What would you do if someone told you that you were the most beautiful person in the world and they would do anything to wake up to your face each and every morning?
I used to believe crap like that. Now I know better. I'd probably laugh.

How do you think you look right this moment?
Raggedy. I am sweaty and wearing cut offs and a sports bra.

Have you ever dated someone for longer than a year?
Yep. Poor guy(s).

Do you like blue cheese?
very much! I even know how to spell it properly

What's your favorite piece of jewelry?
I have a lovely diamond ring and several nice ruby ones as well…oh and a necklace of skulls carved out of bone…oh, I almost forgot the diamond earrings…or the black cord with the bronze skull pendant…or the heavy antique silver bracelet that doubles as a weapon…oh and the stainless steel claws for my ears…let's just say I like lots of jewelry. Sparkly things appeal to me.

Ever been in a car wreck?
oh yes!

Do you like thunderstorms?
very much, especially if I have someone to fool around with

Do you own slippers?
Yes, but only wear them when it is really cold. I prefer to be barefoot

Do you like sleeping on satin sheets?
you know, I really, really do even when it is just me

Would you be a pirate?
Someday I hope to be one. I'd be an awesome pirate!