Wednesday, March 01, 2006
Why do I give a crap?
So why, a week later, am I still bothered by my lame ass classmate who has simply vanished? I have wasted way more time than I should thinking about someone that I don't really even know. WHY???
The only thing I can think of is that because he seemed to be a nice guy who was also a 'non-traditional' student I felt a connection even though our conversations were minimal. Especially since we were both studying chemistry and forensic science. It makes me sad that he has apparently dropped out and given up on his dream.
I know it is tough - believe me! Every day I have to struggle to squeeze in all the classes and homework on top of my full-time job. I have been tempted to give up numerous times but one of the things that keeps me going is the thought that this other person is also getting his ass up out of bed and getting through everything too. I figured if they could do it then I could too...now if he has wimped out, what is going to keep me going? Maybe it really is too tough. He seemed really smart - probably smarter than I am...if he couldn't do it what makes me think I can?
and so I continue to obsess. Even when I should be studying so that I don't have to drop out. ...and I continue to worry about some guy I don't even know and who (for WHATEVER reason) wants nothing at all to do with me...
what a bitch!
The only thing I can think of is that because he seemed to be a nice guy who was also a 'non-traditional' student
I know it is tough - believe me! Every day I have to struggle to squeeze in all the classes and homework on top of my full-time job. I have been tempted to give up numerous times but one of the things that keeps me going is the thought that this other person is also getting his ass up out of bed and getting through everything too. I figured if they could do it then I could too...now if he has wimped out, what is going to keep me going? Maybe it really is too tough. He seemed really smart - probably smarter than I am...if he couldn't do it what makes me think I can?
and so I continue to obsess. Even when I should be studying so that I don't have to drop out. ...and I continue to worry about some guy I don't even know and who (for WHATEVER reason) wants nothing at all to do with me...
what a bitch!
# posted by Phoenix : 3/01/2006 10:31:00 PM
